October 26, 2006 by annadulcekelly.

I think it’s nice to have freedom of speech.  I just can’t emphasize enough that every freedom comes with certain responsibility.  Freedom can be exercised for as long as there is no violation of someone else’s rights at the same time.  I believe people have the right to voice out their thoughts, their opinions, whatever.  But I also believe I have the right to choose what crap I listen to.  I think I have the right to refuse to listen to something I’m not interested in.  Everything I hear goes in my brain and certain things just stay there whether I like it or not.  And if it were up to me whether or not I will allow it, then I will take the opportunity to be in control of that.  It probably is normal for the speaker to be offended by my unwillingness to listen, but so be it.  I am not the only person on earth, and there is such a thing as a blog, if sharing opinions is that important.  I don’t want to give up my right just so someone else can exercise their freedom.  I’m sorry, but give them a minute, and it will last an hour.  No, thank you.  There is not enough space in my brain for important things, much less crap I don’t really need.

Also when I say “No, I don’t want to hear it”, I do expect the speaker to stop talking about it then.  You don’t just ignore someone saying no and just go on and do it anyway.  That is just extremely rude, in my book.  And if you’re going to be that rude, I’ll be just as rude and let out an exasperated sigh.  I am not about to care if that pisses you off.  I mean NO when I say NO.  It’s simple as that.

Life would be so much simpler if people would just take NO for an answer and shut up 50% more than they already do.

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October 23, 2006 by annadulcekelly.

I guess some people are just born without it, or maybe they’ve suppressed it so long that it disappeared altogether.  Never mind that shutting up and keeping it inside half the time would save them trouble or keep them out of an argument that they KNOW isn’t going anywhere.

 I just don’t see the point in drawing out a discussion that no one is going to win.  Why bother when you know going in that no one wants to change their opinion, that no one will want to be the first to shut up, that everyone thinks that the last person to say something wins?  Why bother?  It’s pointless, it’s a total waste of time and energy and it does absolutely no good.

I don’t set out doing things that I know are going to benefit someone somewhere.  I just don’t see the point in disturbing what little peace is there.  I just don’t see why there has to be an argument about everything.  I just don’t see why people seem to think that freedom of speech means freedom to yap to the point of annoying everyone around you.  I heard that any form of freedom has some degree of responsibility attached to it.  I don’t think everyone thinks the same way.

I am all for the sharing of ideas.  Don’t get me wrong.  But I’m also all for diplomacy or tact.  I’m all for knowing when to shut up.  I’m all for avoiding a pointless argument whenever possible.

I find though that when few people around me think and act the same way as me, I use my inner voice less as a result.  It’s an ugly result of an ugly situation.  I’m trying to stay the same, but it’s just so hard with everyone else’s rantings pounding in my ears.  I don’t know how many times I’ve mentioned “inner voice” in the last 2 days.  I guess I’m getting to the point of not caring about tact anymore.  I could have said so many hurtful things before but I’ve avoided doing that.  What I have to say might be true and maybe the person I’m talking with needs to hear it, but I try not to be hurtful.  I am now thinking it’s time to be hurtful, if just to be frank.

I have told DH just today that if he used his inner voice half the time, life would be nicer all around.  He asked me if he could do something, I said no, and he did it anyway.  So then I told him, it’s funny how you complain about other people not listening to you, you don’t listen too well either.  In both cases he had nothing to say.  I think he should be careful around me now.  I have thoughts that have been fermenting in my brain for years now.  I have polished them to the point of probably not stuttering when I finally say them out loud.  I still am saying them in a really nice way.  I haven’t resorted to a lot of swearing or yelling.  By watching DH I dare say those tactics are highly ineffective.

It just doesn’t hurt to shut up more than usual.  It might not feel good sometimes but one has to think outside oneself.  Well, at least that’s what I was taught.  It would seem to me a whole bunch of people were absent from school when that subject came up.

America…wonderful country…yeah, right…let me guess, that’s according to people who have never been out of America.  Yeah, that sounds about right…it figures.  Tunnel vision.  And yes, I’m not using my inner voice right now.  It doesn’t really matter, people don’t only know how to use the inner voice, they are strangely talented at ignoring what other people are saying, especially if it makes sense.  Yeah, open your mouths wide…shut your ears…that’s America for you.

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October 3, 2006 by annadulcekelly.

I didn’t forget about my blog.  And it’s not like nothing’s happened in a month.

The 23rd of last month was the brats’ mom’s birthday.  They went up to see her late night before her birthday, all 3 of them…which was rare.  Well, she spent her birthday at some bonfire with friends while the brats stayed at her place.  Some mother.  About as bad a mother as her mother is a bad grandma.  Not my program.  And speaking of their other grandma…nothing new, sent some article about herself, one for each brat.  After all, her grandkids need to each have a copy of it…talk about ego.  Not that her grandbrats don’t have too much of that either.  I guess it runs on that side of the family.

Anyway, same day was the 5th anniversary of when Scott reached out to me online…his first message to me asking me whether I had this one song by Jewel and offering to send it to me if I don’t have it.  It took me 3 days though, to get back to him.  And then it was another 5 days before we got engaged…crazy world.

Yesterday was Ms. Perfect’s birthday.  I did nothing to acknowledge it…I was just being fair…all 3 brats didn’t get anything from me.  I hope they’ll reciprocate…then I can have a happy birthday.

I’ve gained some weight…5-7 pounds in a week…and staying there.  Not good.  Today I got some diet supplements that are supposed to help.  I hope they work.  I just want to lose about 10 pounds…in the right places hopefully.

It’s getting cold…I am hating it.

We got the missing parts for the dog crate…now she stays there when we’re at work.  She’s not smart but she’s smart enough to know if she messes in the crate, she’s going to have to lay or stand in it till we get home.  And then at that point in time, I would give her hell for it.  She’s become regular…when we get home, I let her out and she does her business shortly after.  Good.  No more half-hour non-productive walks.

I’ve been playing The Sims 2 again.  I’m having trouble staying interested in a family…haven’t gone beyond 2 generations ever.  Right now I’m not playing…I’m making paintings.  I hope it all works.  I’ll stop working temporarily after I get to 50 paintings, I think.  Then I can work on uploading to my site…hopefully.

Iya’s in Italy now.  I’m getting things together to send to her.

I’m tired, I’m sleepy, I’m hungry.  I shouldn’t eat though.

I’m going back to work now…then maybe I’ll sleep.

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